Lost

Today I would like to write about a feeling that I have often encountered lately. Not only myself, but also in conversation with others, I realize again and again that we all have it to some extent. No matter where we are. Traveling or at home.

I like to describe it as standing in a hallway and not having the next door open yet. However, the door you came out of is already closed.

Time and time again, I get to the point where I take an outside perspective and the question arises in me, "What am I doing here?" What is the bigger goal? Where do I want to go?

Where do we want to go?

What door are we opening?

It's a time when we don't feel a real ground under our feet. A time when we don't really know where to go.

Some call it 'lost'. Lost in the thousands of possibilities that life offers us. Doors, if you want to see it that way.

Where do we see ourselves tomorrow? Or in one, in two years?

It starts with an idea of how we want to feel. An idea of our own life. I remember well when I was about 12 years old, I was asked if I could imagine emigrating and living in another country. And I said yes without hesitation. Without even having an idea of where. I had imagined it exciting and exotic. And what if the dream came true? What is the next step? Will there be the next door through which we pass?

And maybe it also takes the time of decision making, of not knowing, of being lost. The uncertainty that accompanies us for a while until we know again which direction we will take.

Don't we have the best ideas in those moments when we are bored staring out the window or lost in thought doing the dishes? Then space is created and creativity can spread out and create something new.

So we need times of doing nothing to create space for something new.

No matter how old we are - let's not forget to start new things again and enjoy the time. The time of uncertainty, of being lost. We all know it.

My last weeks were marked by moves, by changes and new beginnings, by days when I didn't know where to go from here.

I made decisions from my gut, which were exactly the right thing to do. And so I am overjoyed to be in a new accommodation and to have made a new start in my everyday life. And not to have lost sight of my goal.